Friday, November 9, 2018

Prayer to our Home and Mother

This poem/prayer was written by me last year during the Santa Rosa fires. To ask mother earth to please give a reprieve. Unfortunately California is on fire again.
With Love and Light, 

Grand-Mother Full of Life

Beautiful connector of beings
Shape shifter
Way maker
Nourisher of Cells

Rain down your love
Nourish the skin of our mother
Gently Gently

Heavenly energy
Breath of life
Dancing with leaves
Giver of flight

Lay down and be still
Your time will come again

Heat of Passion
Giver of light
Burning heart
Your warmth brings joy

Calm your rage
Hunger appeased 

Deep moist nourishing
Roots of the ancestors
Branches of knowing
Mountains of memory

Bring forth your bounty
Still your body
Gently breathe

Grand-Father Strength
Give us power to protect
Help us stand in solidarity
Fist in Hand
Heart Open

Grand-Mother full of life
Let your birth waters flow
Your breath calm
Your passion gently nourish
Your abundant body bloom
Always giving 

Always supporting


Monday, June 18, 2018

Collective Energy

In this new governmental administration, there has been a buzz word. Well actually two buzz words. They are collective and energy. When you put the two together it describes what happens when many many people feel the same way. Another key word to think about. Feel......

Every day when I go to work, I prepare for the day. Both logistically and spiritually. I arrive and meditate on how I would like the day to go. I ask for help from my spirit helpers so that I have the power to do a job well done. I clear the space and raise the vibration of my healing space. I do this whether I have massage or spiritual healing session that day and even if I have facials or waxing clients coming in. In the end I want, that my clients leave my space feeling better than when they came in. No matter the reason they are there.

One day in particular, I decided to draw a card from one of my oracle decks. Usually the card is right on track with where I am at the time. But this time in particular, the card has been a catalyst for my next project. The front of the card read, "I can praise abundance wherever I see it."  Wow, my first thought.....I do that. Then, I read the back of the card.

Ha! Eye opener!
I realized I was contributing to the collective energy that is bringing lack to our lives. I don't know about you, but I have been hearing more and more of my clients talk in a negative way about the very rich. Me included......Its hard to admit it, but this card was a real slap in the face. When I started thinking about it, I realized that I too have a hard time feeling joy for the 1%. I too have been criticizing and pushing against what I really want.

 Upon conversing with a friend at a cafe, you know who you are, I realized that what we need is a way for people to shift. How do we raise our vibration?  How do we attract what we want? How do we get people to start being positive. Just saying be positive isn't going to work. You have to feel it. Ahhh, feel, the other buzz word. How can we feel joy for another's good fortune. Its easy with friends and family. But what about the man in the white house and the CEO's of corporations. What about those people. If what Abraham says is true, then we cut off our nose to spite our face every time we feel a negative emotion regarding another persons abundance. 

So here is a snippet of more to come. A little exercise for The Law of Attraction from the book by Ester and Jerry Hicks, " Ask and it is Given". Its called "Moving up the Emotional Scale". If you are feeling anger, fear, grief, depression, despair or powerlessness this exercise is a great place to start. 
The idea here is to learn to shift your feelings and in turn your vibration. If you are wanting more money, your not going from not having money to having money. You first have to go from feeling insecure to feeling secure, the money can follow. If you are ill and want to be well you must shift from  fear to confidence. The more confident you feel the more wellbeing you have. 
If you want a new car, the universe hears my car sucks, its too small, it uses to much gas, it always breaks down. So you have to shift what you feel about having a new car.  
Your challenge is, first and foremost, know what your current emotion is. What are your thoughts? Are they positive? Are you feeling power-filled or powerless?  If you are feeling powerless find another way of thinking about your dilemma. How can you make the glass half full?

If you would like to learn how to make this shift stay tuned! I will be offering a Law of Attraction Class in Pacifica once a month as part of the Wise Women Sharing series with my colleague Wanda K. Whitaker

Pacifica Law of Attraction 
Oct 16, 23, 30 and Nov 6
7:00PM to 8:30PM
Florie's Book Store, Pacifica, Ca

Monday, April 23, 2018

When Ancestors Speak

When Ancestors Speak

The wind blows across the sea
Music left behind
One with water


Old Country twice

Two Seas

Go back and back

Blood still red

Grandmother country

We are here in you 
Mother country
We are here in you 
Land is one


Antoinette Cresci de la Torre - Copyright,2018

This ancestor mask was a year long project filled with dance, drumming, poetry, sculpture and of course.....Shamanic Journey Work. It was inspired by the poem, which I wrote at the International Women's Drum Camp in 2017. An amazing Poet, Playwright, Multi-Percussionist, Photographer, and Teacher
 by the name of Avotcja taught a short but powerful class. This was one of the catalysts that sent me flying forward on a year long ancestral journey. Blessings to the many women who have touched me this past year and years to come. 

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

The People Behind Me

What led me here? To this place of talking to my ancestors. I've always known I'm connected. I remember being a little girl up at the Russian River. My aunt had a house in Monte Rio and we would go stay at her house in the summer time. Every day we would make our way down to the river to spend the day. Its not that the river had any more meaning than the ocean or the bay that I grew up near. I think those days at the river were times when I was actually allowed to be present with the water long enough to really go deep with her.

We never spent the day at the ocean or the bay. In fact my mother was very afraid for us kids at the ocean. So my yearning to be with her (the sea) was discouraged. I have alway had a very intimate connection with the water element. My father had a business that was right on the San Francisco Bay. He was in the fish business. I always wanted to jump off the pier and be one with her. But that was unheard of. I was told "Nobody swims in the Bay! Its polluted!" Later I found out that lots of people swam in the Bay including my uncle who swam the Golden Gate Bridge. But I'm getting off track.

Our days at the river would start out with me riding in the back seat of my mothers car imagining that this beautiful powerful woman was inside of me and I was going home to the water. I was going home to the greens of it all. I was ancient and I was becoming whole again.

As an adult I brought my own children to the River. I have had this homecoming every year for the last 53 years. And even as an adult I still feel the feeling of coming home once my feet are in the water. As I sit and write this I realize that I was having a shamanic experience. Even at the age of eight the ancestors were calling to me through the water. The spirits have always been with me. I have always had a relationship with them. But didn't realize all the serendipity I experienced over the years was really communication.

When I was 18 my brother gave me a gift. He gave me an all expense paid trip to Hawaii. I knew after that trip I was supposed to be with the Ocean. I spent 2 weeks in the water. Having the same altered state experience I had a a young child. The same coming home feeling. The same healing. On the plane ride back I cried the entire 5 hours back. I was grieving a great loss. I had ingrained in my head that Northern California water wasn't a safe place for me. I had been standing on the shore all my life and now I knew how it felt to merge with the birth waters, the amniotic fluid of grandmother earth. It would take another 30 years to finally work through the brainwashing I had been given as a child and take my relationship to the water to a new level.

My connection with water runs deep. I met a distant cousin a few years back. He was into genealogy. He had my family tree dating back to 1640. I, apparently, come from a long line of fishermen. Every male in my family tree was a fisherman dating back as far as the records go. Water goes beyond me. To go out on the sea and ask the sea to feed your family. To make it your livelihood for generations and generations. This takes deep unwavering faith, fearlessness, and most of all, the ability to call on help. Most of my life has been spent connected to or dancing with the water element. I know now that this has been my ancestors way of communicating with me. Our connection to our ancestors is part of the big picture. They are there for us. We just have to listen with our hearts and with our bodies.   We are all connected, physically, spiritually, vibrationally. When ancestors speak, listen.

I have been working with my ancestors to bring health and abundance to my life and I am now offering the chance to learn how to do it for yourself. I am offering a workshop called